Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Why I write about depression and diabetes

Woke up this morning and I'm having another bout with my brain. I thought about ending it all today when I woke up. I'm trying to use the techniques that I learned when I was in the hospital last month, but it isn't helping. I just want to go home and sleep. At first, I thought it was the fact that I was tired, but it is more than that.

Everything that is causing stress keeps coming from all sides. My kids are all being really self-centered, my oldest is probably going back into the court system, my job can't take me being depressed, I haven't gotten any responses from the jobs I have been applying for for the last 2 months, etc.

I know that Tammy is too tired to try to be there for me, and we don't hardly ever see each other anymore. I got, maybe, like five minutes to talk to Tammy last night. It is getting so bad, I feel alone. When I talk to people online, they tell me to call and message them, but the depression tells me that they really don't care. That's the big thing.

I'm writing this post in order to let people know if I don't respond, I am okay. Tammy will let you know if anything happens.

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Respect means sacrifice.

I'm not sure how I should feel today. I'm tired, and I don't want to do anything that I should be doing. People are just getting under my skin too much lately.

The election isn't even it (although it's just as messed up as ever). I cannot take the fact that people don't understand or are just flat out unwilling to sacrifice a bit of themselves to help everyone.

This problem starts in my own house. My oldest son won't do anything if it doesn't directly benefit him. This includes things like going to school on time, getting a share of the cleaning done, and engaging with the family. My daughter is now taking up his attitude when something happens that she doesn't understand or like or makes her feel afraid.

The place I work at is the same way. I understand the job, what they want to do, and how they want to do it. That's why I get paid. Okay. But when I have a customer that comes in and gets mad that they have to call their parents (or kids in the case of some of my senior customers) because they have not put an authorization on their account, it is my fault. Normally, I can let this slide because I get the frustrated feeling, but not this time.

A few days ago, I got verbally assaulted by a customer because I wouldn't let her get an equipment change because she's not authorized. I explain that once the account owner gets this person authorized, then I will take care of everything. I get called names that allude to the fact that I must be hating her because I'm a white male in my 40s. I only stated after taking her crap for five minutes that she used an argument that my 4 year old daughter used last weekend, and calling me names doesn't change the fact that the policy is there, and if I violate it, I put my family's well being at risk.

The response: You and your family can go to hell. This is my phone and I need it working again.

It's time for mutual respect to be brought back. Don't coddle your kids, because for everyone that teaches we should be respectful of each other (which is correct), they don't explain that respect means sacrificing your ego to get things done.

Once again today, I go back into this environment with that mentality coming from the front lines. It's time for me to get out, but I can't until I can support my family.

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

Hanger HTC Vive controller - VR heads edition - timelapse

This is a timelapse of a 3D print of a hanger I made so I can hang my HTC Vive controllers and incorporate the logo of vrheads.com from Mobile Nations (my favorite VR blog). Here's a link to the YouMagine project: https://t.co/iakE55E3MO

Monday, October 3, 2016

Thursday, September 15, 2016

In the hospital

I'm at the point that I have been hospitalized for some issues. For everyone that still follows me, sorry. It's time to take care of me.


Friday, August 26, 2016

Example of Next VR livestream of Bayern Munich v. Werner

This is the stream of Bayern Munich and Werner Bremen to start the Bundesliga 2016/17 campaign from Fox Soccer Channel and Next VR. There is no audio because I can't record audio from a Gear VR without external hardware.

Friday, July 29, 2016

Monday, July 25, 2016

On the job market

I think I'm finally at that point that I need to go for it. I have always wanted to be some sort of marketing or evangelist for a tech company. Since this is what I want to do, I suppose I better start by talking about what is the reason and why I want to switch.

When I decided to go back to school, I knew that time was not on my side. As a continued to work through things, I got into a state of mental and physical anguish, to the point that I was hospitalized twice. Since then, my health has improved, but work conditions have not. At this point, working for a telecom retail store is not what I want to do anymore. The job is comfortable, pay is good for the area, discounted phone bills always rock. The problem is it is still retail, and with companies as a whole not letting their frontline people move upward, I decided that now is the time for me to try to catch my dream job.

There are several technologies that I like: Xbox, cloud computing, VR, photography, and general development. But many of the people that are experts in this usually are not the type of people that like to talk to people about it. Whether it is due to personality or communication skills, I tend to be the bridge that brings a lot of people to technology easily. I have been an expert in communications my whole life, and I get technical processes.

I think the best job for me is a marketing position with one of the big tech companies. I have applied to a few positions at Microsoft, Amazon, and Dell, but I'm looking for more. I just want to communicate about something that I feel is very powerful, but I don't want to have the same face-to-face experience I have for years. If anyone that works for a company that can use a voice to get the technological people and the users together, I want the opportunity.

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Stern Pinball Arcade - Frankenstein

This is a video I made of the first game I played of the Frankenstein pinball table for Stern Pinball Arcade for Gear VR. Gear VR doesn't record audio, so sorry, no sound.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Print of a PS4 Stand - Raw Footage

Printing a PS4 stand designed by Noerdz on Thingiverse. http://ift.tt/1s6Y1Mx for the link

Monday, April 25, 2016

Time to think #2 - Spring Cleaning

I usually like April. I tend to use the new days of sunshine to get enough energy to clean up the clutter that winter always brings in my life. Most of the time, that means cleaning out closets and trying to get my wife to throw stuff away. This year, she finally sided with me and we have cleaned out a lot of things that we never used since we moved in together (almost 20 years!).

I'm starting to do the same thing with my digital life, but in reverse. Since I have finally graduated from the University of Nebraska at Kearney, I feel like I can devote more time to projects, but I don't have a firm plan. So here's what I'm looking at doing with my schedule:

Sunday Evening: Family time, then gaming or 3D printing, 1 hour blogging
Monday Evening: Spend 1 hour working on coding for Windows 10, then joining the ExpertZone Community livestream for Star Wars Battlefront (Here is the Twitch channel)
Tuesday Evening: 3D printing and design, and watching Night Attack <>
Wednesday: Streaming LEGO Dimensions on Twitch and working on household projects, 1 hour blogging
Thursday: 1 hour of coding (I usually close on Thursday)
Friday: I am planning on doing a late-night Twitch stream involving 3D printing, and video projects
Saturday: Family and random

This schedule will give me an idea of what kinds of stuff to invest my time and balance my passions and my life.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

My Passions - Virtual Reality

I have a few things in life that I have a real passion about. I've decided to start a new series involving an overall look at each one of my passions, and one thing that I have to be passionate about. DISCLAIMER: I do work for a wireless carrier that does sell these products. These posts are my own opinions and thoughts, just like I'm encouraged to give my customers.

First of all, today's post is about the burgeoning world of virtual reality. I have been a big fan of the components that make up VR: 3D interactivity, 360 degree photos and videos, and new ways to supplement tactile interaction. For most consumers, 360 degree photo and video is the WOW factor. There is a new world in 3D interactivity with several apps taking worlds immersive experiences to a new level. The section is still in infancy, with companies like Samsung, Facebook, HTC, and LG trying to figure out what will stick.

I decided to take the plunge by getting the Samsung Gear VR. This headset is powered by the same engine and software that runs the Oculus Rift, but is housed and driven by the Samsung phone that might be in your pocket right now. The commercial headset is available for $99 retail as of April 2016, and requires a Samsung Note 5, or a S6 series (S6, Edge, Edge+) or S7/S7 Edge. The S7 series is preferred due to the upgraded processor and RAM, and does not seem to overheat as fast as the Note or S6 devices.

The other options that are getting huge press in tech circles are the HTC Vive and the Oculus Rift. Both of these devices are over $700 US and require a pretty powerful PC to work. They have way more features and abilities than the Gear VR, but for what most people would consider a mind-blowing experience, the Gear VR is the easy way to get into this.

My plans are to review the different applications and hardware needed for this to work. I'll mention what devices particular services work on, but I do not foresee myself getting a Vive or Rift anytime soon.

Upcoming topics will include:
  • How to make and share 360 pictures
  • How to take 360 video
  • Virtual 3D experiences
  • Games
  • How to do normal tasks in VR environments (like e-mail and web)

Don't forget to let me know what you want! I'm pretty much krisguy anywhere. I'm also on Line, BBM, and Skype. Please let me know.
For those that do have a VR headset, I'm krisguy on altvr.com

Monday, April 18, 2016

Time to Think = Number 1

After a 6 hour nap today, I'm awake for a while. In between writing sentences, I'm cleaning up my desk and colored drawers so I can simplify things. Whenever I clean up my desk, it is a reset of my mind.

I heard something on an episode of Legends with JBL on WWE Network featuring Brian James, known professionally as WWE's Road Dogg (link to the episode here). He made several statements about how his mind works, how creative people tend to self-destruct, and how he "thinks 100 miles per hour, but the rest of the world goes 50". That last line has stuck with me for the last week.

I am one of those people that either cannot or do not have the ability to shut down their thought process. Right now, I am setting up multiple collections in Google+, re-watching this episode for a fresh perspective about what I'm saying, and cleaning up my desk. At 12:30am.

I need to learn how to be dumb. I need to learn how to think like people that I help in my store; people who don't know how to think like I do. I think I would stop using food as a drug and get better quality output instead of being the guy who can't not know everything.

Thank you, for saying something that made me realize there is still more work to do on myself, Brian James. Thank you.

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Hiding in plain sight - update

I've had quite a bit going on in my life since I graduated college. Work issues, family problems, and health issues have finally gotten to take the front since school is over. While I don't have a problem with dealing with stuff like this, it's been overwhelming on Tammy more than me.

I took a break from actively doing more than a few posts on social media to try to focus, but I realize that I can't focus on projects without getting myself talking to people more. I finally realized that I am more social than I want to be, but I'm married to such and introverted personality that I have to curb my social activity to keep her from going into uncomfortable situations.

I'm excited to go visit my father's side of the family in June. My mother's family has a history of being all out for themselves and destroying family, because it's family. No one on my father's side of the family has ever done anything that would constitute criminal activity or psychological harm. I'm now feeling the other side of isolation, how to interact with these people.

They are so close, so loving, and so unafraid to do stuff together; I'm not sure how to react. It seems like everyone wants to do something every day while myself/wife/kids will be in Utah, but we do want to have a few days to ourselves, so we can balance our energy. I hope people won't be mad if Tammy and I skip a few outings.

I also have another choice to make: focus on the 3D printing or focus on Win10 Universal development. I've wanted to do both, and both will take a lot of work to learn. Does anyone have any other suggestions for learning MS stuff other than MVA?

Well, off to the first of many appointments for today.