Saturday, November 1, 2014

Endocrinologist visits, or "Am I going to get hellfire or nurture?"

I've been on insulin pumping for just over 3 months now. I love it. I know I'm getting a constant base of care, I can easily get better management of my blood glucose when all things are equal.

But things are not equal right now.

My school work is the hardest it has ever been, with two very intensive writing classes (read: lots of papers) and a finance class where you have to memorize all the formulas. At work, the focus has changed with new management and cyclical sales. At home, my wife cannot keep up with her job and work with the Scout groups my sons are involved with. The house can never get clean, I can never get any time to be me; no gaming, no writing code, no playing with soldering hardware.

Courtesy user itstom (Felipe C. Mateus) via flickr.com
I feel like I'm drowning, because I've gone back to stress eating.

When I get really stressed out, I don't care about how much I eat, I eat. This normally happens when I am up late at night, by myself. That's been happening a lot the last month because my wife is going to bed earlier.

The big thing is that I have both a endocrinologist appointment and a regular doctor's appointment on Tuesday. I hope that my endo understands that I need to fix the mental problem before I make any changes in my therapy. When I can keep myself from getting in a depression cycle, my current therapy works. When I get mentally knocked off, waking up with 445mg/dL glucose happens. (BTW, it also didn't help that my infusion site ripped out during the night).

What do my #dsma family do when they know that the mental problem is the overall problem? Does their team just give it a *pffft*? Let's talk about it.

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